ITS A CIRCUS ANYWAY

What am I thinking, expecting Philippine election campaign to be something similar to the US, Japan or Europe. That will be the day. Just had a reality check a day ago after my last post. Phil election campaign remains to be the same circus of old hags and ghouls. Each presidentiable is claiming to have something "new" and "reformative" if and when they will win. One advertisement even sig the song of "bagong umagang darating", however each one is using the traditional way of campaigning in the Phil. How typical.

MANYANA HABIT

WALa ng ingles ingles. Nakakairita ang mga news lately. Ang daming taong nagrereklamo sa COMELEC dahil sa mga aberya sa last minute registration. Eh mga hayup pala ang mga taong yan eh, HALOS ISANG BUONG TAON ang binigay na registration time tapos kung kelan 3 days or 2 days before the final day saka sila dadagsa at ngayon may lakas pa ng loob magreklamo. Totoo naman na kahit gano kaayus o kaganda and sistema kung dadagsaan ng libo libong tao, talagang babagksak ang sistema.

Maryosep, may mga panahon na halos walang nagpaparegister sa mga COMELEC offices, tapos ngayon dadagsa sila lahat at expect na maaccomodate silang lahat. kasalanan din naman nila yan. Wag nila sabihin na sa almost 1 year na registration period eh ni minsan hindi sila nagkaroon ng oras para magregister. At sabihin na natin pumunta sila at sinabihan silang tatawagan sila months back, hindi dapat nila inasahan yun. Dapat kung feeling nila na hindi na sila tinawagan, nagpunta na sila ulit sa COMOLEC at hindi hinintay and last minute. Walang lusot ang karamihan sa kanila for such an irresponsible attitude.

Tapos expect nila umunlad ang bansa, ang simpleng tamang paggamit ng oras at panahon hindi nila magawa. I'm not saying I am perfect, pero I can brag naman na 95% of most cases im ON TIME and as much as possible I do not procastinate. Kaya personally, talagang napepeste ako sa mga taong late. Marami man magalit sa akin sa post na toh, ala akong pakielam dahil totoo naman. isang CANCER ng PAG-UNLAD ang lipunan ang ugaling MANYANA habit ng maraming mga Pilipino at ito ay kitang kita sa recent last minute regitrants sa COMELEC.

I havent written for some time now due to lack of time, and proper resources.

ALL ARE AIMING FOR THE SAME THRONE


When i thought months back that 2010 election will be a time for a more enlightened and hopeful election, I guess, I thought wrong. With the present situation, it just became more confusing and I guess it will become more troublesome as there are several people aiming for the same prize, the presidency. Initially I thought it will go down to atleast 4 candidates aiming for the presidency namely Manny Villar, Mar Roxas, Jejomar Binay (my bet) and possibly 1 from the administration (which in this case is now Gilbert Theodoro.)

Now it has become like a circus. Former President Joseph Estrada is running with Jejomar Binay as VP. Noynoy Aquino is running with Mar Roxas as VP. Gilbert Theodor has no VP yet, Manny Villar is yet to have a running mate and Escodero is playing the run-around whether he will run for Presidency or not. Lorean Legarda would possibly now run as the presidential standard bearer for her party, which Escodero just left. Its becoming like a circus act. Who benefits from this political juggle? Non-other than the administration since the vote of the opposition will be divided among the players wanting the same position. take note, the administration has the resources of the state on their hands. Add this to the fact that the votes will be divided come election time, Gibo has a strong chance to win. Of course most Filipinos (I strongly presume) doesn't want to see an administration candidate winning.

FORMER PRESIDENT ESTRADA

With all due respect to him, he is dreaming if he thinks he will win the presidential election in 2010. Does he think, the powers that be, would allow him to run this coming election given the so obvious constitution hurdle he is faced with. And lets say with some miracle he is allowed to run for the presidency he is deluding himself to think that he still has the same amount of overwhelming support from the masses and the middle class that he had back in 1998. Since then it has greatly diminished. Back in 1998, he did not only have the vote of the masses but almost half of the middle class also placed their trust in him at the time. He may still have most of the votes of the masses but the support he is expecting, (which i strongly presume) is no longer in existence.

CHIZ ESCODERO

Months back, Chiz Escodero was silent about running in 2010 for the pres. He was presumed to run rather for the vice presidential post since he, at the time was inelligible for he was only 39 years old. Suddenly there was news that he was being pushed to run for presidency by his pol party, NPC. He did not provide any categorical answer whether he would run or not. He just said that come his 40th birthday, before the filling of the certificates of candidacy, he will announce if he will run for the presidency or not. Like any great politician and public seducer, he makes people wait and gives them non-specific and all rhetorical answers to specific questions. I have such high regard for him but with his use of rhetorics, which looks very fake and obvious, somehow I look at him now in a different light. No amount of rhetoric will make me believe his words again. Not to mention his, recent and supricing withdrawal from his party was obviously a political move rather than a moral one. He mentioned during his interview with Ted Failon in TV Patrol that he moved out of his party because he or anyone else should and "must not be shackeled in any political party" in order to run for the presidency so that he or she would act freely and not under the influence of his/her party once such person has become the president of the republic. idealy this is the case, regardless whether one is part of a pol party or not, no one must have influence over the president of the country, however, how can one possibly run and win the presidency without the backing of any political party which has the machinery, organization and proper funding to support such a massive political campagin noting the fact of how dissipated the geographical and geopolitical nature of the Philippines. So in this case, as many analyst says that, though Chiz's has non-specifics yet in his bid for 2010, his withdrawal from his pol party is certainly a political move and not a moral one (amidst his blabbering of moral dimensions in his decision to cut ties with NPC).

I really don't know whats with him and his withdrawal from the party. personally I think He will not run for the presidency, and he is just making "paligaw" with other parties to get him for the vice-presidential post. Because I really don't know how he will mobilize such great amount or resources and people in order to run for the presidency and actually expect to win it if he will just fly by himself. Something really smells fishy with his political moves lately. besides, I really think this is not his time to run for the presidency. I think its premature for him to bid for the presidency and the fact that he will just split the votes that are necessary to prevent the administration from winning the game.

NOYNOY AQUINO

The only reason I will vote for him is because he may very well be figure to rally most political parties and figures to fight the administration from claiming again the presidency. However, as it currently looks, the supposed other pawns in the game, are not rallying to his support and aid. The opposition group of Estrada announced their own bid for Malacanang and the NPC of Chiz was formerly looking to front Chiz as their standard bearer. Loren Legarda, upon the declaration of Noynoy was still determined (back then) to run for the presidency. Manny Villar brushed off his announcement and is still determined to win the throne by pouring all his resources towards, tv ads, donations to the afflicted people of the typhoons (which has his name on the goods) and all sorts of paraphernalias. So obviously, Noynoy as of yet has no support from, nor power to ally to him the other players of the game. Oh well, the actual election is still far and so many things are yet to happen. May be in between, things will change and the other players will finally support him and fall of from the race. hopefully.

Personally, I am adamant of Noynoy being an effective president. Morally he is apt for the position but in terms of ability, I am not so sure. As far as I know he hasn't authored any laws yet and his popularity is only purported with the fame and credentials of his heroic parents. It was a given that Cory Aquino was not prepared for the office she took thats why she was not as effective as one should be in holding the office during that time, but with Noynoy, he is not prepared in the sense that he has not proven himself nor assertive enough as an able candidate for the presidency, unlike Mar and Chiz who, even during the 2004 scandals were staunch critics of the administration. Mar was a previous DTI secretary during the Estrada administration. Up to now, I haven't heard any specifics on the platform of Noynoy. May be it is too early but a few months back, Mar Roxas and Jejomar Binay were already putting forward several plans they have in mind if ever they will be the president of the country.

I DONT HAVE A BET YET

In my own mind, I don't have any possible candidate that I really want. Months back I was choosing between Mar Roxas and Jejomar Binay. I was leaning a little bit more towards Binay. However, with the current turn of events, I really have no one. As I have mentioned the only reason I am to vote for Aquino is because he may well be the only one who can prevent the administration from getting another foothold on the Palace.
I am hoping that there will be a better turn of events in the coming months that will help me and other Filipinos to make a better and enlightened choice.

ILANG araw na lang kaarawn ko na naman. And I feel jaded again. I always feel this way whenever my birthday will come. I am not happy nor am I sad. Its just is. Yun siguro sinasabi ng maraming matatanda, that as you grow older the focus, the importance of your birthday becomes irrelevant.

Anyway,

birthday ko na nga, nag-aaway pa kami ng partner ko. pag ganitong jaded ko it doesn't help that your partner causes stress in your life. To be honest lately sa mga petty fights namin, i get so pissed that sometimes I feel as if I am falling out of love sa kanya. Feeling ko tuloy bumabalik yung dati nyang ugali na hindi ko gusto ko pati na yung pagkaparanoid nya. The problem is, unlike before na nagpapasensya ako, this time, i no longer have the patience to bow down to his tantrums. I am having my own tantrums. I am being as neurotic if not more neurotic that he is. So we are really clashing lately and our clashes is making me sour in our relationship.

Mahal ko sya. don't get me wrong. True love naman ay hindi lang nakabase sa emotional stimulation. Sabi nga diba, hindi porket nasa mahirap o mabigat na stage kayo eh basta na lang bibitaw. Siguro space. thats right... I need space for now. kaso naman takot din ako na hingin toh sa kanya kasi baka kung anong kalokohan gawin nun.

hay... I need to get out of this perennial melodrama of mine either wise, I should enter a monastery. hindi bagay sa outside world ang ganitong buhay ko.

25 BIRTHDAY WISHES

1. MOVE out of my parent's house. Be independent. Ideally with my partner.

2. My father will be consistent with his financial support and increase nya na.

3. good health and happiness for my parents, specially for my mom.

4. good health for myself and my family

5. good health sa partnes ko. At sana maging health conscious sya kahit konti. Itigil na nya paninigarilyo

6. maging on time partner ko. Matuto ng proper time management. magmature pa.

7. get promoted by February.

8. makapagstart ng savings and investments ko

9. makapagstart ng business

10. makapag-aral na ng graduate studies (masterals)

11. have the time to and initiative na magkaron ng regular na exercise regiment

12. control and lower down more my lust or sexual urges (syempre kailangan maging faithful)

13. makabili ng maganda-gandang cellphone

14. makabili ng bagong digi cam

15. makabisita at bakasyun ulit sa Ilocos Norte

16. makabili ng mga books na gusto ko (sobrang dami and sobrang mahal nila. hindi ko afford.huhuhuh. kaya nga wish. hehehhe)

17. makagawa ng charity work

18. mabayaran yung dalwang utang ko (SOON)

19. makabili ng laptop

20. pag my laptop na, magjournal palagi

21. pag may laptop na, makapagstart na magsulat ng libro (isa sa mga gusto ko maacomplish bago mamatay ay makapagpublish ng libro)

22. makapagtanim ng atleast 100 na puno.

23. makapagpaint ulit and possibly sell some of my paintings

24. tumagal ng matatag at masaya ang relationship ko kay PHI

25. Renew my relationship with God. I badly need a retreat. Nung bata ako nabobore ako sa mga recollections and retreats, pero, ngayon, hinahanap ko. I badly need one.

Random POST

I haven't blogged for sometime, due to having no PC at home (SIRA, tinatamad ako ipaayos) and due to being stressed. I usually just sleep whenever I have the time and also spend my time with my PHI.

Hindi ako apektado ng baha kahit inabot ako ng 2 days bago makauwi ng ANTIPOLO. 1st night I stayed sa house ng office mates ko with two other office mates. Morning non, nag-inuman kami then hindi na ako nakauwi kasi wala ng masakyan dahil kay ONDOY. Guess what asan kami, sa MARIKINA. Pero the good thing is, dun ang bahay nila sa part na hindi apektado ng baha. Ni hindi nga namin narealize na sobrang grabe yung nangyari na nung 2nd night sobrang nakonsyensya ako na nung oras na namamatay mga tao at nawawalan ng mga bahay, eh ako ay nag-iinum. Sound proof din house nila kaya hindi namin marinig ulan sa labas. Kaya talagang clueless kami sa nangyayari sa mundo that time. Anyway, second night my PHI and I stayed over sa motel kasi pareho kaming hindi pa makauwi. Sya sa Marikina nakatira pero hindi apektado house nila. Yun nga lang grabe and dinanas nya the 1st night. He stayed over sa friend nya sa Cubao. Lunes na ako nakauwi sa amin.

I have so many thoughts about everything that happened, about recent events in POLITICS and whats going on in my mine lately kaso lang, TINATAMAD AKO MAGSULAT lately.

Hay. Eto na lang muna. La talaga ako gana today eh

Things I wish to have for 2009

1. books: 48 laws of Power, Art of Seduction, Art of War by the Author of 48 laws of power. book 1 and 3 of conversation's with god. Darkside of the Catholic Church. NEw Earth.

2. New Cellphone (preferrably iphone)

3. Laptop

4. Apartment (with my partner)

5. time deposit and savings joint account (with my partner)

*Mababaw lang kaligayahan ko. This items are not in any order. I want all of them for 2009. hehehe


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Places I want to go to this 2009

1. I want to go back to Ilocos Norte to tour the place again and go to Pagudpud the 2nd time. Also to visit my tita (she's a nun) who has stage 2 cancer. Please pray for her

2. Divisoria. I haven't been to divi since January.

3. Eat at Estero. I have been wanting to eat there for so long. Couldn't find the damn place.

4. Taoist/buddhist temple in Divi (im 1/4 chinese)

5. Hundred Islands and Manaoag


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Things I want to achieve for the remaining months of 2009

1. No absenses at work until I get regularized

2. Have a very educated and well informed mind regarding the national election and the candidates.

3. Renew my devotion to the Divine Mercy and Sacred Heart

4. Excell in my performance metrics at work

5. write atleast 3 good poems. (I haven't written a poem or verse for the longest time)

6. Do a short documentary. If I am unable to finish it, atleast I could start one and probably finish it in 2010.

7. Do photography the best I can.

8. Learn how to use excell as I am not familiar in using excell well.


1st week of 2010 I will try to remember this and reflect by then if I have achieved most of the things listed here.

I would like to think that I am a reponsible and wise voter because as early as now I am researching the life and accomplishments of the possible candidates for the 2010 election specially with the Presidential and vice-presidential post; as well as analysing by the facts and the daily news regarding each possible candidate for me to arrive with the best decision. I am torn between Sen Mar Roxas and Mayor Binay.

Mar Roxas

I see that Mr Mar with the years of his political career has ample achievements to brag about. He has been a staunch critic of the current Arroyo Administration with ample senate actions through senate inquiries in certain issues scams and scandals. I was able to watch several live senate hearings from ANC and somehow I feel and see the sincerity of his rhetorics. His questions and comments regarding the obviously dubious or evasive answers of some of the senate respondents are very logical and common sensical. So, in a way I feel that senator Mar has the heart for the people and the reformation of the government. Again, let me stress that it is just "in a way I feel that he has the heart".

Some of my reservations are his somewhat sensationalized or showbized relationship with the TV news anchor Corina Sanchez. I don't want to be malicious with legitamacy or authenticity of their relationship. But theres something in my gut that makes me jitter at the thought or feeling that 60% of the relationship is used to propel Mar to the Presidency. I also feel that the outspokeness of Senator Mar is a bit O.A. and his overzealous criticism of the administration did not come about in a smooth way. I feel that he suddenly became a corruption gatekeeper overnight. I dont feel the smooth consistency of his advocacy to be an administration watchdog. I just feel that everything is so overtly showcased or limelighted and it feels his all over the place all the time.

One redeeming factor is that his not a clanging or noisy empty tin can who just blabs about administration misdeeds and failures, he actually makes laws that are directed towards helping the filipino people with their plight as well the economy. I'm not sure if he is the sole author of this bills or laws but certainly he was a strong advocator of the cheaper medicines law, the revised employee tax law and the EVAT (to help the economy whether external and internal economic problems, even though it might impact the life of the ordinary filipino.) He is also a strong supporter of small business enterprices or entrepreneurship. When he was a trade secretary he promoted and endorsed and empowered the "Palengke" to boost the local market and economy.


Jejomar Binay

I like Jejomar Binay but my vote and confidence is not yet fully landed on him. My reservations with Binay are with his political ties with some political personalities in the UNO and he is posing the suttler image of being pro-poor like former Pres Estrada. He might be sincere, politiclally willed, well planned and has a clear vision for the country but the personalities around him pulls down his credibility and sincerity to serve. He is projecting that he can do things for the poor. I am adamant with this image-building because we already has a bad experience with former Pres. Estrada and look how that turned out.

The good points that i really like about him is that he was really able to uplift the life of many of his constituents. This is very visible in the city of Makati. The administration attempted many strategies to unseat him, like having Lito Lapid run against Binay for Mayorship but Lito Lapid Lost. Not even a famous and well-loved action star of the masses was able to topple him down. There was several other attempts to remove him from office but the two attempts also failed as the courts proved that there was no reasonable cause or reasonable link for the administrative charges filed against him. The Ombudsman dismissed the cases.

I searched this and asked several Makati residents and they confirmed that the public school system was well funded and supported. Children from pre-school to highschool was supported not only with free education but also with free school supplies. There are computers in public schools atleast 1 computer to 1 student. The books are also the same. 1 book to 1 student. Medical support and local healthcare are also given attention children, women and the elderly have government assistance in terms of medical services. They have this so called green and yellow card if I am not mistaken. The elderly also enjoy free cinema admitions at all movie theaters in Makati. It is subsidized by the local government. i think they just need to present a senior citizens ID and a proof of residence. I am not sure on this. College students are also supported by the local government specially those enrolled in the state university. Local traffic enforcement are also strict in its traffic rules and regulations. Most people are disciplined drivers within the Makati area. Some of those I interviewed would say that the people of Makati are relatively happy with the administration of Jejomar Binay because basic social services are being met.


I am currently researching Chiz Escudero, Francis Pangilinan and Loran Legarda.

10 Things I love about my Partner

1. Knows Commitment and fidelity very well. Puts it into action.

2. Caring

3. Very Hygenic and takes care of his complexion very well. (You could say he's vain)

4. Dependable

5. Flawless complexion

6. loves to eat (like me)

7. has time for me. Effort oriented.

8. Tech savy.

9. Semi-domesticated.

10. last but definitely not the least, he's a performer in bed. (oh yeah! I don't need to go to the gym to burn calories.)

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20 things I hate about my partner

1. Paranoid

2. Super Jealous to the max

3. always late

4. finds it hard to understand other people's points

5. Smokes

6. Eats a lot of sugar based food

7. Eats fatty foods (fat of pork and chicken skin)

8. forgets to update and do protocols

9. Loves drinking beer

10. Compulsive shopper

11. Doesn't know how to budget and prioritize

12. Workaholic

13. rants about problems but does not voice out his concern to the proper authorities

14. Poor memory

15. Often looks negatively at others instead of being self-reflective.

16. loves window shopping all day (buying nothing at all)

17. Somewhat bi-polar in his way of thinking and an over-thinker. (he thinks of the worst possible scenarios)

18. Egotistic.

19. Immature in handling a relationship. (I have to be the one to understand and adjust most of the time)

20. had to be told the specifics of things. He is by-the-book.

* Oh well. I love him thats why I accept him as a whole. Positive or negative.

Religious preoccupation

I don't know why I am preoccupied with religious and spiritual matters lately. I am currently reading the history of the Catholic Church. I am reading the official version and the version of the anti-catholics. I am somewhat, religiously jaded rightnow. I mean I am spiritually sound, but my religious affiliation with my catholic heritage is a bit shakey. This is the second time I am in this sort of religious crisis. Let me point out that spirituality is different from religiosity. Thats why I said my spiritual life is perfectly sound but my religious affiliation is not. May be this will just pass by. I hope it does or if not, I hope this current predicament of mine will bring something productive and enlightening in the end.

This is not for atheist. This assumes that there is a God that exists.

The creator, the so called God (male or female or both or none, regardless) if he/she/it is a God must first considerably be All-powerful. Lets not put labels on the extent of his/her/it's power, but any rational god-believing person would consider the creator to be the one all-powerful being. With the new discoveries in astronomy and physics, The universe, from the smallest particle to the largest stellar or galactic body, has given us the grandeur of the physical world. A God who created all things or is the originator of all existing things is and must be the one all-pwerful being in existence. This is the first attribute that he/she/it have.

2nd attribute of an all-powerful God is infitnity. "from everlasting to everlasting you are God"(Bible)

Another attribute is the masive and incomprehensible (in human terms) knowledge and wisdom of such a God (it doesn't mean he/she/it is all knowing. Omniscience is an issue with free will, it shall not be discessed)

IF God is all-powerfull and superior in intellect, then theres nothing that can possibly added or reduced from him/her/it. He/she/it is self sustaining infinitely. As the bible puts it "the heavens cannot conatain him... the earth is his footstool...") Therefore God could not possibly need anything from anyone. Sacrifices, sacraments, rituals and any other act would and could not add anything to God. He/she/it owns everything that ever existed, currently exist and will exist. In the same way, any form of sin even murder or worst even genocide will not and could not deduct, hurt nor inflict injury to an infinite, superiorly intellectual and all-powerful God. He/she/it is God from everlasting to everlasting and his/her/it's authority or power is absolute no matter what.

Given the argument, notably lets accept the fact that there is order in the Universe; there is design in how the universe works. Therefore, a God who puts order in the Universe and allows Life to flourish with its proper times of existence is should generally be Benevolent.

This general attributes of God by rational deduction I would say are the very basic insticts of Man's familiarity and longing for the Divine. Everything else are symbolisms to physically and sensually familiarize with the Divine. All other attributes of the so called God, are the ways of man to humanize the divine. The humanization and familiarization of the God is what we now call as religion. Religious practices helps human beings be able to "touch" and "comprehend" the Divine. Concepts of temptation, sin and damnation in relation to the Divine is the corelation of religiosity to sociatal functions man. Since man, in the early times, viewed the world as primarily ruled by spirits and gods, human actions are deemed to be subject to the terms and conditions of their gods. This gave rise to the many codes of morality and sociatal standards of behavior in relation to religion.

What is my point?

Religion should be a guide to spirituality and not a strict guideline to how one conducts one's life. God will not punish a child for stealing a few coins from his/her mother's purse. God in his wide wisdom and understanding will not punish a boy for masturbating or if one has done a minor act or sexual misbehavior. God will surely not distinguish wether you are buddhist, Catholic, zoroastrian, muslim, shinto, taoist or whatever hulabaloo sect you belong too. His anger will not flare if you are gay, heterosexual, bisexual or whatever sexual sexual clasification you place yourself in. As one professor told me before "the law is a guidance to the wise, while it is slavery/obedience to the fool". this is the same with religions and their specific moral codes, they can only effectively serve as guidance to one's spirituality and not as rule of how one conducts one's life.

(I dont know why I wrote about this article.)

As usual everybody is talking and blogging about the latest event, Cory's death. Some of us doesn't want to be like everybody else but sometimes, you just cant help it. So here I am, writing about my thoughts on the event.

Well, its true that Cory had a big role in returning democratic rule and rights to the country however she missed the opportunity to bring true and effectual change to the over all political and economic arena of this nation. Cory's lapses as a president was made known to me back in college by my political dynamics professor and it really demistified me from the icon that is Cory Aquino. So when her eventual death was emminent and when she finally passed it really did not had much impact on me. I don't know if am suppose to feel guilty for being totally neutral but thats the way I feel. I think she deserves state rituals and honors for being the former president and democractic figther however, i think it is a bit too much specially if people would know her mistakes and lapses. Don't get me wrong, I am not one with the hardliners who calls Cory's cancer and death as justice for all those injustices that transpired during her term. First it is utterly improper and disrespectful because, her, being Cory and in general, the death of anyone doesn't deserve scorn. I mean, its Cory Aquino. She might have failed in many areas of governance but one thing is for sure, she never used her office during her term to gain monetarily and otherwise, for herself and her family. She had integrity and her prayer life was just impeccable.

I think the tribute is a bit overrated and sensationalized but it doesn't deserved scorn from the hardcore lefters. For whatever its worth, Cory is cory. A wife of a martyred freedom fighter who unwantingly and unwittingly became the President of the Republic of the Philippines. Sad that we lost a constant watchdog of democracy like Cardinal Sin. May she now rest in Peace.

I can just see the smile on Gloria's face as well as her husband's. The cardinal has been long gone and now, Cory too has passed. No more fighters of freedom and symbols of democracy. How convinient for her, her family and her cohorts to do their dirty anticks and to stay in power.

I was about to register for the elections next year however the registration in my locality has been haulted as the computers are yet to be fixed.

I was able to watch the second ANC presidentiables chuchu show. I actually forgot the actual title or name of the program. Anyway, it was a program where posible presidentiables for the 2010 elections would have the chance to introduce themselves and if ever they will be running for office then can already present there initial ideas and plans for the country if and when elected as President. The second show featured, Jejomar Binay, Former pres. Joseph Estrada, Sen Loren Legarda and MMDA chair Bayani Fernando. Sen Lacson was also to be featured in the program but earlier in the day, before the program, Sen Lacson, already made a formal declaration that he no longer has any plans in running for the Presidency in 2010.

I am really not in the writing mood right now, so to make the long story short I will cut this short. Here are my points for each presidentiable featured during that time.

Jejomar Binay: I was impressed. I did not expect him to be a very charismatic and well prepared. He was the most specific and detailled among all the others in the program. He said that he would give more power and financial help to the local and provincial government in order to meet the needs of the people and also he mentioned that such relocation of funds could significantly reduce the amount of money going to corruption as funds would be directly given to the appropriate local units instead of going from the executive department, goring through a lot of offices and units for approval before reaching the appropriate local gov unit or before the fund is actually used in the project or gov program. Decentralization of the funds as he said can minimize the impact of corruption and more money can be used for social services and programs of the government. He repeatedly mentioned that he was able to successfully uplift the City of Makati and provide so many social services and programs for its people.

Loren Legrada: She was very Rhetorical in her explanations and answers to questions. It was obvious that she did not have a clear plan or program yet for the country if and when she is elected as president. Disappointing I must say for someone of high intellectual stature.

Joseph Estrada: The former president was very cordial and relaxed. He was cracking up some comical and satyrical comments. However he also mentioned good points in addressing problems such as promoting family planning in order to solve some problems in education. HE saw that no matter how many schools and classrooms you built and fund each year it will still not be enough because the population keeps on growing, and children going to schools keeps on increasing each year at a pace that the government could not keep with, with its resources. I somehow felt that the former president joined the debate for simply attending it. I felt that he is more resolved of not running for presidency (in my opinion he cant for obvious legal reasons and for political powers that will prevent him from doing so). He spoke more on a tone of reminding people how things can be solved in his point of view and also reminding that the things he achieved during his short stay in power as if saying that if he was only allowed to continue he could have done better than the current incumbent.

Bayani Fernando: he was such a disapointment. He was one of those I was eyeing to vote in 2010 because, I think, he continues to do a good job in MMDA. In the overall view, I am pleased of how he managed MMDA and the projects, reforms and policies they implemented in the streets of Metro Manila. Though harsh as they seem to be to the urban poor and he may be misunderstood for his long term goals and reorganization of the cities, he nevertheless did a good job with the position and department he was assigned to and with that I was considering him to be a good choice for the presidency. If he can organize the chaotic streets of Metro Manila then may be che can organize the the Phil as a whole. However, it was a disapointement as to how he presented himself in the presidentiable show. He did not sound credible or intellectually capable. It seemed to me as if his mind was floating in mid-air. He was very broad in his asnwers to the questions, let alone his answers were very short. He is officially out of my voting list, given the fact that he is also under the Lakas-Kampi party of the incumbent president, to which I vowed never to vote a single lakas-kampi candidate.

NOTE: I am no stupid voter, let alone a stupid and careless citizen. I do keep myself informed on a daily basis and currently I am reasearching the possible candidates' backrounds and so far Jejomar Binay is on my top list for 2010.

(I am really not in the mood to blog. I am just killing time right now waiting foir someone and I have 3 hours more. So dont wonder why there are misspelled words and some gramatical errors in the entry)

* Last night June 2, was flipping through the channels when I saw the live telecast of the house session for the passing of Resolution 1109, a resolution to call on congress to convene as a constituent assembly to amend the Philippine constitution. It was an appalling event to watch. Anywhere here is my discourse regarding the event.

 

When you think that circumstances and politicians are already in their worst that they are, the summit of their evil, namely those in the house of representatives and also of the executive branch has already went beyond the heights beyond Mt Apo in pushing and rushing for a resolution to amend the 1987 Constitution.  It is already a given that 98% of our local and national government officials and “public servants” are corrupt and downright foul specially during this time when the executive is led by someone who wish to go beyond the infamous accomplishments of Ferdinand Marcos, and mind you this current President is the second longest President next to the Marcos; It’s a sure thing that the entire bureaucracy of the Philippines is rigged in graft and corruption and that 75% of the Filipino people allows itself to be raped of the nation’s coffers on a regular basis. The legal processes in the ombudsman to prosecute the red handed devils and the impeachment cases in the House of Representatives have been manipulated and stage-managed and it was simply tolerated by the people with a deafening silence but not without condemnation. But to tinker with the very heart of Philippine Law, which is the Constitution, to play stupid the people by mere technicalities of the procedural law and play the rule of numbers to the outmost disgusting and immoral practice of democracy is downright and utterly… well I could not think of what proper word to use to describe such the harassment, the rape, the sacrilegious act towards the Filipino people and the spirit that embodies them, which is the Constitution.

 

RESOLUTION 1109:

                 Resolution 1109 was a house of representatives’ resolution to call on Congress to convene as a constituent assembly to amend the 1987 constitution. It was originally proposed or sponsored by Congressman Villafuerte for the mere intention of having justiciable issue of whether the senate and the House of Representatives should vote separately as a constituent assembly or as a single whole in amending the constitution for future guidance if and when in the future the constitution is to be amended. However the original architect of the resolution withdraw its support on the resolution as the house leadership started to mishandle the proposal and as well as to put the proposal or resolution in a bad course. The resolution that was finally passed and went through the committee of Constitutional amendments was a broad and questionable resolution. It only called for Congress to convene as a constituent assembly to amend the constitution, meaning that by context the constitution is to be amended upon convention of the assembly, however the resolution did not specify the specifics of what parts of the constitution is going to be amended or if the entire constitution is to be replaced at all. The good part, which is not a good part at all, is that there was a pledge and  a covenant by the signatories of the resolution that if and when the process of Charter Change pushes through the terms of office of the President down to the legislative branch will not be extended and the 12 senators who has a term of office until 2013 would be allowed to finish their term. The reason that it is not a good thing is because if and when congress convenes as a constituent assembly, they are no longer bound by the terms of a mere house resolution since the powers and boundaries of the house by technical interpretation, cannot over run the powers, functions and boundaries of a constituent assembly. So the pledge is nothing more than letters written in water.  Unfortunately, the night of June 2, the broad and much generalized resolution was passed in a railroading manner by the house leadership and its majority. The resolution was pushed and rushed as Congress is about to formally be on break and would return in July (if I am not mistaken). This is where one of the areas of doubt is founded upon, “what’s with the rush?” especially in a very delicate matter such as amending the constitution.

                I am not familiar with procedures on legislative functions but as to what I understood in watching the dramatic session, a congressional resolution should be a bicameral resolution, meaning that house resolution 1109 should have an equivalent resolution in the senate especially when the issue is as important as changing portions or all of the 1987 constitution. Then each of the resolution should undergo a committee hearing or deliberation before it goes to the plenary hall for formal debate and voting. I’m not sure of the procedure mentioned above; it’s merely a derivation of what I witnessed and my personal knowledge on how laws are made in congress. But from another angle that I came to understand that it is possible that the resolution of the house for constitutional amendment can be done singly by the house of representatives, but again it has to be proposed, endorsed, deliberated in the appropriate committee and then debated in the plenary hall, voted upon then the approved resolution is transmitted to the senate. However the sad thing about it both procedures was totally railroaded by the ruling majority, which by common public sense is under the control of President GMA.

 

IN THE PLENARY HALL

                Resolution 1109 was obviously rushed in legislative speeds that are historical in nature given the fact that it is a very critical and sensitive resolution as it will pave a way for congress to change portion or all of the constitution. The constitution is the heart and foundation of all the laws, bureaucratic functions, and policies of the state, and even foreign relations of any given civilized post-modern nation. So a resolution to call upon congress to convene as a body to change the constitution cannot be deliberated in the plenary in just mere 4 hours. It could not even be deliberated for 1 day unless the resolution itself has undergone a thorough scrutiny in the committee level. The problem is, as the opposition congressmen and women pointed out in their objections during the railroading event by cutting short the interpellation was that the resolution did not undergo committee deliberation thoroughly so as to bring it up to the plenary well polished. The minority, which is the opposition, during the final committee deliberation, was promised and pledged by the house leadership especially by Speaker Nograles that instead of wasting time in the committee level, all questions and debates in the committee level can all be addressed in a one gunshot thing during the interpellation in the plenary proceedings.  And so the minority agreed to such an offer. I think there were 11 or 8 opposition congressmen and women were in line to question the proponent of the resolution. It was also at that portion that I came to watch and get glued to the live telecast by ABS-CBN ANC Channel. However, in the middle of the debate, the previously infamous opposition Rep, Dilangalen of Maguindanao came to the stand and motioned to close the interpellation, to the surprise of the opposition or house minority. It was at that time that the resolution was obviously being derailed and shortcut by the house leadership and house majority. One noticeable event was that the plenary hall obviously had few congressmen and women during the interpellation but when the interpellation was suddenly cut short and the voting to pass the resolution was nearing suddenly the entire plenary hall was jammed packed. The opposition was given their time to explain each of their objection to the closing of the interpellation and also their objection towards the passing of the resolution. Representatives or congressmen and women with the likes of Satur Ocampo, Darlene Antonino Custodio, Liza Masa and the likes pointed out in their objections that the house leadership promised them time to question the resolution in the plenary since it was not done in the committee level. They further and strongly pointed that the resolution was not properly “cooked”, it is being pushed and rushed irrationally, house procedural rules was not followed properly and was even violated, and that the resolution in itself was vague and has to be further deliberated.

                I personally liked the objection speech of the former speaker Joe De Venecia as he pointed out and made clear that resolution 1109 was nothing more than a vehicle for hidden agendas and political maneuvering by the administration and its allies in the House of Representatives. Joe De Venecia was a strong advocate and promoter of Charter Change but as he pointed out unlike his ways the current resolution was improperly done. He pointed out that previously he had cha-cha resolutions properly undergo its process and he even went to campaign in so many parts of the country for cha-cha to be understood and accepted by the people. Also his cha-cha was very specific on which portions were to be changed with the proper terms and conditions of amending it. Unlike of course the current one that was passed, it did not reflect a specific amendment on the constitution. He even suggested to simply apply the Nograles proposal, which specifies that the economic portions of the constitution is the part that is to be changed. He further said that even if the Nograles proposal was merely a ploy for something else at least it was with specifics and it was presenting something unlike the resolution 1109 which did not mention a single thing as to what specifics was to be changed; notwithstanding the entire process on how the resolution came about the timeliness of the resolution and how it was passed is totally questionable.

 

THE OBVIOUS POINTS OF DERAILMENT, RUSH AND HIDDEN AGENDA

·         The resolution was not properly polished. It is vague. Upon its passing it will allow congress to amend whatever and whichever it likes in the constitution.

·         The resolution’s pledge on non-term extension on national officials is not binding in a constituent assembly.

·         Interpellation of the resolution was not given proper time. The minority was not able to finish its discourse, ask its questions and express their views regarding the resolution properly. The rights of the minority in the house were stepped over. The minority knows that they will lose in the voting, but they are merely asking time and also to exercise their right to interpolate. The house leadership promised and pledged that such time shall be appropriated but it was not honored.

·         The resolution was rushed and pushed to be passed days before congress goes on break.

·         In comparison to the CARP extension resolution which was properly done and processed, resolution 1109 over ridden the passing of the CARP resolution even when in comparison and in importance, amending the constitution should take more time than the time it took for the CARP to be deliberated.

·         If CARP Extension is passed and economic provisions in the constitution is to changed to allow foreigners to own land and property in the country is ratified, then there will be conflict in the provisions of the CARP and the law allowing foreigners to own land.

·         The house cannot go and pass Chacha resolution without the senate, therefore the passing of resolution 1109 the night of June 2, was considered futile and fruitless since senate will not, in any way, go with the wagon in changing the constitution. But there lies the suspicion, because given the fact that the house leadership knows very well that senate will not support the chacha resolution and that the House of Representatives cannot amend the constitution without involving the senate then why is there such an eagerness and energy to push for the resolution at all? It seems as if they are cooking something deadly in their witch’s pot.

 

MY FEELINGS AND CONCLUSIONS

                If one was able to watch the plenary session regarding resolution 1109, it was really unlike any other major events that one would have watched, except of course the impeachment of Joseph Estrada. Compared to the GMA impeachment derailments and legislative investigation hullabaloos of the hello Garci and fertilizer scam, the session was also epic in itself as I saw the complete disregard of the moral practice of democracy in the most sensitive and paramount issue of changing the constitution, the primary law of the land. I saw how insensitive and how heartless the ruling majority are. Before, you can hear me saying that congressmen are people with black hearts and bones, But upon seeing the proceedings of 1109, they are totally heartless beings. They are mere puppets of the one puppeteer who sits supreme in the Palace overlooking the Pasig River. It really made me question a lot of things regarding the resolution. Why is it being passed during this time? Why is it being rushed in a manner that the resolution was not properly processed and procedural rules were not followed? I saw that pledges among colleagues were not honored. I saw a former opposition strong man was now among the allies of the majority and was even the one who paved the way to cut the proceedings short. I question the timeliness of the resolution. I wonder why it is being pushed when they are aware that it shall not prosper or even if it pushes through, between now and 2010 there is not enough time to accomplish a complete and well done charter change.

 I don’t know if I am to be ashamed being a Filipino for having such a government made of such men and women. I know what they are doing has nothing to do with being a Filipino, but what happened the night of June 2, 2009 and since such people are the leaders of the land and they represent the Filipino people, then somehow I cannot avoid feeling ashamed of my nationality. I was totally appalled and flabbergasted as each moment unfolded before me in the live telecast of the plenary session and how resolution 1109 was successfully passed by simply a shouting of “YES” and “NO” of the legislative body. I felt it was a sacrilege and a blasphemy against the Filipino people as to how they do things in the plenary hall. The plenary hall was and is the shrine of the people’s supreme power to make laws for themselves through the duly elected senators and district/party representatives. Now it makes me wonder if there’s any good candidate I can vote in 2010 from the lowest local position up to the presidential position. Well one thing’s for sure I won’t vote for any Lakas-Kampi politician and I call upon everyone to do the same. Really, Philippine politics and the Philippine government controlled by all sorts of scoundrels, has crossed over to the point of total debauchery, moral decadence (if it even has any morality at all) and profligacy. I hope 2010 will really be a new and hopeful start of the this ill-governed nation.

I think that he has earned his right to be mentioned in my sanity_pen blog...


Our story is a story that waits to be further written. But for our prologue we started out back, I think when I was in second year college, second semester, which was in 2004, if I am not mistaken. It was a casual fuck. We chatted and he agreed to go to may place in Antipolo. He agreed to come even if it was already 1:00 Am and he was from Marikina. My mom and brothers were already sleeping in there room so I was able to snick him in my room. The funny thing is when we we're in the middle of the "thing" my mom woke up and knocked in my room. Eros and I panicked and I hid him in my cabinet. Luckily my mom did not enter my room and I just shouted that I was doing my night prayers before sleeping (bad bad boy). So we finished the deed. He went home. We texted still for a couple of months but I felt that he was not that into me or that i felt he was with someone at that time, so finally, we lost communication for some time. For a very long time. I met other people. I had a partner, "special". we call ourselves special as a term of endearment. Special and I were together for 1 year and 8 months, and finally broke up. Eros and I met again when I was in 4th year college, December of 2006. We decided to have a relationship back then, which I think was reckless and immature thinking of it in "now's" perspective. We decided to commit but thinking back then, we were both not serious at that time because after a week we broke up for a stupid and shallow reason. We lost contact again but bumped with each other in Libis, in Blue Onion Bar. I saw him with his handsome bf that time. I was single and with my schoolmates partying for the end of the year and the nearing graduation.Since then we haven't contacted each other. I saw him several times in the chat rooms and in a social networking site for the "3rd kind", for "people-like-us" but I never really messaged him because somehow in my gut I knew he wouldn't talk to me again nor even consider another chance with me. SO I just left him in peace. I met other people and got my heart broken several times over. Then Finally one day he replied to one of my threads in the forum of the social networking site we are both members of. From there on we talked, exchanged numbers. met each other again and finally we decided to close the deal, to the tie the knot.

I cant explain how happy and contented I am right now. I guess the saying or song is true, "we had a right love at the wrong time" SO this means that at this moment of time, in our lives,we have the right love at the right time and also the song goes "somewhere down the road.." yes Eros and I met again down the roads of our lives. I really hope and pray that this time it is for keeps already. Challenges will come. Thats for sure. A commitment takes a lot of work and endurance to keep it and stay faithful to it specially with the kind of environment and lifestyle that people like us live in, but I believe that things can be achieved specially with two people who have agreed to keep it and work for it no matter what. Cant wait to write further the story of our lives.

Monday Afternoon, May 4, 2009 at exactly 3:54 PM Manila time, I was flipping through the cable channels when I stopped at CNN. Well, my 3 most watched channels are CNN, National Geo, HBO and Star World. Andrew Stevens was the anchor reporting about the recent victory of Many Pacquia against his British opponent Ricky Hawthorn. The report was going smoothly when after the entire report about the event, Andrew Stevens gave a small remark or side comment "He could very well be the nest President of the Philippines." I am not stating his words here verbatim but that is 98% close to what he has said in the telecast with a matching smirk in his lips, a kind of malicious smile. It was a short comment but I found such a comment, unnecessary, offensive and has a malicious and condescending undertone to it.

Of course many might say that what CNN anchor Andrew Stevens said was completely faultless and innocent if taken merely in the face value of the words that came out as it did not outright mentioned a derogatory word, however, in my personal opinion and interpretation as a viewer the manner in which he said such things was utterly condescending not only to Many Pacquia but to the Filipino People. The words that the anchor said may imply a lot of things. For me it was as if he was saying that simply because Many Pacquia is so popular and loved for his boxing victories that that would be enough for the Filipino to elect him as President of the Philippines. And it further extends to the point that he might mean that the voting intellect of the general populist is so ineffectually unsophisticated and dull to simply vote out of popularity.

Of course such meanings derived from a so called innocent comment is merely my interpretation of its possible context but the fact that it had possibilities of negative undertones is the very evidence or fact that such a short "innocent" comment was said irresponsibly and unethically by a an anchor of a respected global news agency.

It was a short comment but for me it was utterly offensive and demeaning. First, if they are able too, I would ask for the explanation of why such a comment is to be said by an Anchor and why it was allowed. Secondly, regardless if ill was not intended by such remarks or that defensively the network and the Anchor would say that the remark was harmless and did not have a condescending context, I still would like the network to apologize for such an irresponsible remark, cause regardless whether the remark was stated innocently, jokingly or whatever God knows what intentions or context it was standing upon, suck a statement for me still stands as unethical and irresponsible for a Journalist to say on live news broadcast. It was even irrelevant to the news that was previously reported. So liability must still be taken by the network and the anchor.

Its just me, just one person, one viewer who got offended but, who knows how many who was watching at that same moment also got offended by such a short remark. Networks and its on cam personalities should be sensitive on the side remarks and jokes. They are there to provide objective news not their opinions or rhetoric's unless of course a certain specific alternative news program or show necessitates such open remarks form its anchors.

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Since 1992, I was very young at that time, about grade 1 I think, I was already following on the political affairs of the country. Well I could not help it; I have a family that watches the news every night. Since the 1992, Sen Raul Roco already caught my attention. There is something about him that I just can’t put my fingers on that made me like him as a politician.

In 1998 when I was already grown up a little, I was about grade 6 I think and I had some political awareness already because my teachers then are making us watch the news and read papers and have political activities in the classroom. In 1998, Raul Roco was one of the presidential candidates and though I could not vote yet, I was wishing with all my might that he would be the one to win.

Raul Roco was an advocate of women and the youth. His advocacies, congressional bills, projects and policies revolved around women, the youth and civil society. I don’t know if it was simply his good skill of public speaking or rhetoric’s but whenever he will speak out about political and social issues I always felt his sincerity and his determination on such issues. I also saw him several times in his speeches in the senate especially during the impeachment trial of then Pres. Joseph Estrada, and he really invoked a sense of sincerity, power and confidence. I feel that whenever he will talk, he talks about things that he really knows about and his not a blabber of issues. He doesn’t concern himself with all issues of the country and I think that’s a good thing as one could not possibly solve all issues, unlike other politicians who would stick themselves to every issue just to have their names and faces visible even if they really don’t know nor sincerely concern themselves with the issues they are blabbing about. Roco, only concerns himself with issues, policies and advocacies he himself really believes in that’s why whenever he speaks about them he is well informed and sincere in his speeches and actions he takes.

ROCO’S ACHIEVEMENTS AND ACCOMPLISHMENTS
1.Sen Raul Roco graduated Magna Cum Laude from San Beda with a degree in English. He studied law courses in the University of Pennsylvania and Wharton School of Law in the USA. He has also many honorary doctorate degrees from various universities.

2. Youngest ever president of the national Union of Students in the Phil and youngest con-con delegate in 1971. he also became the youngest pres of the Integrated Bar of the Phil. He was also had a chance to work with Benignor “Ninoy” Aquino as a legal staff

3. He produced Lino Brocka’s award winning film, “Tinimbang Ka Ngunit Kulang”

4. he became a legislator for a district in Camarines Sur and he became senarot from 1992 to 2000.

5. He became Secretary of the Department of Education during the first term of Pres. Gloria Arroyo.
6. As Dept Ed Secretary he reformed the Dept Ed by many projects that are pro-teachers and pro-students.

7. As DepT Ed secretary he reformed the department with unti-graft and corruption policies that aimed that transparency with the bidding and purchasing process of the department. Such reforms to fight corruption in the Dept Ed increased the approval rating of the department during his term and the department became one of the most trusted department in government. He enacted the reform in the education curriculum to focus on major subjects such as Science, Math, English and Social Science. HE also removed the 3% service fee that is being deducted from the benefits/salary of public school teachers. He pushed for reforms in the salary and benefits of teachers so that teachers may get theie benefits and salaries faster and with lesser red tape.

8. He had other advocacies and charity works that promoted the protection and development of women and children, as well as projects and works for the youth and civil society.

BILLS AND LAWS PASSED:
When he was under Ninoy Aquino, he drafted the Study now pay later law

1. He reformed the Central Banking System and was called the father of the Bangko Sentral.
2. He authored the Intellectual Property Code
3. He also authored Securities Regulation Code.
4. Women’s Role in Nation Building law
5. The Nursing Act
6. Anti-Sexual Harassment Law
7. The Anti-Rape Law
8. The Child and Family Courts Act


I feel melancholic with the new presidential elections coming up in 2010. A brilliant and sincere politician such as Raul Roco never had and never will have the chance to serve as President of this country. During his wake, one senator said (I could not remember the name) that probably, Sen Raul Roco is the best president that this nation never had. The late Sen. Raul Roco, knew what it was he wanted for the country. He had a clear plat form, plans and projects to reform the country and improve the people’s lives. He is impassioned with issues and policies regarding civil society, the progress of women and the youth. Its sad that during the elections he participated in as a presidentiable, most people I encounter look at Roco as a good, brilliant and honest politician and possibly best for the position but the same people who said that, did not want to vote for him because they would say that their vote will just be wasted on him because Roco is not “winnable”. I wonder how many people thought of such a thing and if only those people voted for him he could have served the country and lead it in great reforms and policies that we can only imagine.

Sources:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raul_Roco#As_senator

http://203.115.161.138/library/raulroco/about_rsr/aboutrsr.htm

                                    


Mabilis ang karma… remember the previous entry I made about my ex-tondo guy who severely cheated on me… Well he posted a shout out in friendster na nahold-up sya. And it was not a simple holdup. Here is his story:

"GAling completion ako at pauwi malabon. 1130pm ngyari. pagbaba ko wala nmng tao at mrme nmn security guard bigla ala pa 1 minute bigla nlng ako sinunggaban sa leeg at sinabe holdap pinatawid ako sa kalsada akala ko sya lang mg.isa nagulat at at me tatlo pa naka.abang sken pinaupo ako sa waiting shed at tinutukan ng balisong sa gilid sobrang hapdi at didiin ang pagtusok pinapalagan ko ng ating braso at ung braso nataman at ngkasugat punit pa washday ko!! nkuha fone ko,pera 500 at mp4 ko. wala akomgawa pati scrub suit at case notebook ko, sabi ko pa kahit notebook nlng pu ibigay ayaw tlga!! walang awa.. sumigaw naku at walang tumulong buti nlng me isa naawang mama sken at tinulungan ako papunta sa pulis. pinablotter ko me naka2kilala sa mga suspek sna mahuli sila at mabalik case note book ko. arlene,crista,april,rossel,lovely,dhar. kung me sobra kau na case bigyan neo ko"


I don’t want to feel gratified with what happened. No one shpuld be happy with the suffering of others. But I just cant help but think and feel that it was KARMA’S justice for vindication of what he did to me. I don’t want this feeling of gratification cause I find it foul and inappropriate but I just cant help it. I feel good that it actually happened and that somehow its heave’s way of rendering justice for my case. Well… I do wish that he would learn from what happened to him and for him to reflect why such a terrible thing happened. I hope he may find it in him to consider that things might have happened because he did bad things in his immediate past that caused such a terrible incident in his life. From such reflections I hope he will start to change his life and to never again cause so much pain and deception or manipulation to other people in the future.

Sincerely, people who have hurt me in the past are people who I want to experience pain and suffering not because I want them to simply experience it for my vindication and gratification but I want them to really fall down so that they may learn in their life how it is to feel pain, how it is to be hurt by someone you love and how to undergo grief for them to realize the value of other people. That they may learn from such pains. I believe people tend to be better people when they are at their lowest point because it is at such situations that they begin to realize many things about themselves and the things they need to change.

Its sad that Mr Tondo guy had to undergo such an ordeal but it would be more tragic if he will not learn from such an experience and if he won’t even consider the probability that what happened was karma’s way of punishing him. Because if he doesn’t consider that, there will still be no effect to him as to the wrong he has done to me and that he will not change his ways for the better. That would be really a tragedy.

Well Finally I severed my ties with my Tondo guy... great as he may in terms of love making he is just not that great in terms of LOVE itself. he could not contain himself from fucking.... ehem correction, getting fucked by other guys... So let him be... Not my lost... As if its that easy to find someone who will be loyal, caring and sincere to you.... so let him be and I know he will realize someday there was someone like who he took for granted.

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After 5 months my Dad finanly called us but as expected he has no good news and he even scolded me for emailing him my concerns, issues and feelings regarding our families problems. I wont go into details of it. May he be enlighted by God.

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I really need a change of environment. I need to have a change of work environment and work process and I need a change of dwelling. My head is abot to explode from the toxicity of my work and the people at home. I just need to get out! I am giving myself this week and next week to get a new job with a higher pay. I need a higher paying job for me to be able to move out of the house and get a place of my own.

I need a new environment and a higher paying job… my current job is only making “bola” for an increase or salary adjustments but computing the salary itself, there was no actual adjustment increase to have competitive package than what other companies’ offer. It was just a lot of “bull#$!*”. I am really itching to move on and find myself elsewhere for a fresh start and for better pay that can give me a change in my personal and financial life.

I’m going nuts sometimes already! “AYOKO NA!”

I am typing while I’m at work. Taking several minutes to put down my thoughts and also to rest.

By the way one good thing is that, my High school crush is now in product/service training in my account/department. His not that cute as he was back in high school and he has gained a lot of weight, but nevertheless his still cute. What could this mean? Are we meant to be? (Ambisyusa, ilusyunada!Wahahaha) Well, dreams are free and malay mo naman diba.